Destruction

It has been a long and exhausting month in which the world as I knew it has been turned completely upside down. I have she'd more tears in the last month than I have in the last decade. I have cried out to God in pure frustration and confusion. I don't understand why any of this is happening or why God would ever possibly want this to happen. I want so badly to find the peace in this situation. I have never been in a place in my life where I can't find peace with God over the work he is doing in my life, good or bad.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers that I may find this peace and trust that God is in control even in what seems to be the worst times.

Why Not?

I remember attending a revival when I was younger, not sure the exact age, at my home church. I do not remember who the speaker was or what the theme for the revival was- I only remember one point he made. He talked about trials one night and he said so many people ask, "Why me?" He encouraged us to instead ask, "Why not me?" That stuck with me through the years and I have always viewed trials I have gone through as something the Lord is using me for. I may not see what purpose comes from the trial but the Lord uses me in some way whether it be to grow my faith or to witness through actions to some one else. I am confident that in this trial that I will grow in my faith because I am in that uncomfortable position that God likes to put us in. I am in that position where I have no control over what is going on. God likes for us not to have control because then we turn to Him and give everything to Him, the way we should have done in the first place.

I came across a song the other day that made me smile. I know a lot of you might have heard it, if you have seen the movie Fireproof. I remembered this song from this movie the other day and knew God was calling me to listen to this song as a reminder of His purpose and His will. The song is called, "While I'm Waiting." Here are the lyrics:

I'm waiting 
I'm waiting on You, Lord 
And I am hopeful 
I'm waiting on You, Lord 
Though it is painful 
But patiently, I will wait 

I will move ahead, bold and confident 
Taking every step in obedience 
While I'm waiting 
I will serve You 
While I'm waiting 
I will worship 
While I'm waiting 
I will not faint 
I'll be running the race 
Even while I wait 

I'm waiting 
I'm waiting on You, Lord 
And I am peaceful 
I'm waiting on You, Lord 
Though it's not easy 
But faithfully, I will wait 
Yes, I will wait 
I will serve You while I'm waiting 
I will worship while I'm waiting 
I will serve You while I'm waiting 
I will worship while I'm waiting 
I will serve you while I'm waiting 
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord
I have listened to this song several times in the last few days. It has been a guide to what my attitude should be during this time. I pray that the Lord gives me plenty of opportunities to serve and worship Him during this waiting period. Thank you for continuing to pray for me.

Home Sweet Home

Well, VBS was crazy but it is all done. I am glad I had the opportunity to help. If you have been reading lately, you know I have been struggling with a lot of things. I still am not ready to talk about it here but please continue to lift me and my family up in prayers.

I have done everything I can here and now know that it is time to go home to be with my family. Please pray that the Lord continues to work in this situation. I pray that I will have the patience and peace through all of it. I pray the Lord will guard my heart and soul. I will be getting things in order here and hopefully flying home at the end of the week.

Please pray for me.